One Of MANY Betrayals
The following (condensed) version of the events that have taken place over the last (approx.) five months, contains a lot of“events” as well there are some things omitted as well. You may find that there are references to previous events, time frames, people and other things in this portion that are not available on this site, the reason for that is, I have not included everything hear that the book contains. The segment from my book you are about to read contains for the most part nearly everything I have been doing, going through, overcoming, working on etc. I though, have not gone into full detail for the most part and will elaborate on some of it as well as keep adding updates to it as more takes place and time goes by, the title for the link to this page will change to include the last
date it was updated, I hope you are able to enjoy the read just as much as I have tried living this consortium of….ummmm stuff
**A lot of content (of great importance) has been mysteriously deleted.**
A quick overview of what has gone missing goes a little like this... Jody got me back to Ontario, I was on the
front porch having a smoke as soon as I got there, I took a peek in the door and saw a guy laying on the couch, I asked who it was and casually she informed me it was her husband he still lived there!!! Shocked, I was infuriated but shrugged it off, we spent the entire evening on the porch talking about whatever the hell she was going on about, he kept coming out saying you gotta work in the morning come in and go to bed. This struck me as odd if they weren't together why did he need to keep coming out over and over and try to get her into bed. She informed me I would be sleeping in the basement. I didn't give a fuck I was disgusted! Days went by and the conversation about him still living there kept coming up and I made note of my discomfort, she tried repeatedly to comfort me by telling me that there was nothing to worry about he slept with their daughter
and blah blah blah. That in itself is wrong, NO? I am going to make this brief from here on for this evening/morning. She and I were having sex one night in the basement, with full view of the staircase leading to kitchen, I noticed that she was looking up to the kitchen constantly so I decided to glance up and see
what the hell she was looking at. Lo and behold her husband Jason was standing where he thought perhaps I wouldn't notice, watching us while he was masturbating!!! The following day after my rage had subsided to a degree, I confronted her, her explanation was almost as simple as she is, I was only looking up there to see if he would catch us or not, "I was really hoping he would Jason, you have to believe me I just wanted to piss him off and make him jealous!" I told her that I would only live this Jerry Springer type life for a little while longer out of necessity and that she need fix it, of course the promise like many others was made! Anyway it was hell for a while and things got better things got bad again and so on, anyway read up on this page and the update page that coincidentally has this whole time frame up until now deleted, but soon recovered, but hopefully you will get a look at the book as soon as it is released in the not to far future! * I am going to omit a bunch of things and jump ahead but fill in the omitted portions either late tonight (November 6, 2011) or tomorrow the reason for this is… this is already a long read and I have a few things to do that just popped out of the wood work and I don’t want this to be such a long read the first day it is up that things are missed for whatever reason (rushing, not enough time to read it all overwhelmed etc.) The part I am going to jump to will be indicative to a SMALL degree where things went, have been going, and where they are now.*
In mid-June of this year (2011) I emerged from rehabilitation for alcohol abuse, I attended treatment on my own accord without prompting of any sort from anyone, I just finally realized it was time to further improve the good person I was striving to become, that included abstaining from alcohol abuse as well as the behavior that surfaced as a result of my inebriation, please don’t take that as me scapegoating for my behavior, I am well aware that I am responsible for my own actions and behavior’s. The day that followed my discharge from rehabilitation was filled with curiosity in regards to what has been taking place in “The World I Know” so, I went to the computer and logged into one of my Facebook accounts to see what the people I know that utilize that
forum have been up to as well as tend to a few other things whilst at the computer. Like many times upon logging into my account I had numerous messages in my inbox, a multitude of notifications, as well as a friend request. The friend request annoyed me, it annoyed me because, as many people do I often receive requests to add people I either don’t know, don’t desire to know, people portraying someone they are not, as well as people I have removed from my life in the past. After tending to my inbox, notifications as well as sending and
replying to a number of emails I decided it was about time to go through the possible frustration brought about by whoever sent the friend request. Upon opening the link to see who or what the friend request was I see a face I saw fifteen years previous on a night my friend Jeff and I set out to meet a girl Jeff had arranged to meet over a telephone dating site. She and Jeff found there was little or no chemistry during the time the three of us spent together that evening, at the end of the evening she stated it was time for her to get home. It was late and the walk home for her was going to be quite long, I told Jeff we had to walk her home she was at that time our responsibility, during the conversations she had with Jeff previous to that evening she had lied about her
age stating that she, like myself was nineteen upon meeting and seeing her face it was more than evident that was a lie! The lie was dismissed and it was revealed at some point during the evening she was in fact seventeen. Jumping ahead now, much to both of our dismay, Jeff and I started out on the walk home with her. At some point in our travels Jeff went about his own way to make his way home, I remained with her keeping my commitment to get her home safely. After over six hours of walking, we had arrived at her residence, in brief conversation before she headed inside and I began my travels back home we discussed hanging out again and off she went. In the days that followed she and I had no contact, and I found myself involved in something that sealed my fate for four months, I was arrested and sentenced to four months in jail. During my time in jail she and I spoke on the telephone a couple of times as well as, exchanged a few letters making arrangements to hang out after I was released from jail however, in the course of exchanging letters I was also writing another young lady and in an “accidental” faux pas on the correctional centers guards behalf the letters after being read for mandatory safety precautions by the guards, the guard proof reading my letters “accidently” put the letters for the two different people in the wrong envelopes thus, leading to each of the two
receiving mail addressed to them but upon opening the letters finding the contents were meant for someone else. This “faux pas” led to the demise of the two of us exchanging letters as well as, ceasing communication at every level. I was released from jail in September of 1996 and went about my life for 15 years without her included in it at any level or in any form. Right then! Back to the friend request, attached to the friend request was a simple“to the point message” she asked, “remember me?” I in turn powered the computer off and thought about how I would approach the entire “fiasco”. After much thought and consideration I decided a few days later to address the issue and deal with it. I confirmed her friend request and told her“Jodie of course I remember you, your last name is different so obviously you got married but your face is very much the same”. Jodie Proceeded to tell me about all of the horrors in her life and how bad it has been for her, and went on exhaustingly about how bad she misses me and thinks of memore than daily, further, that I was her first love, she has never and never will stop loving and thinking about me. She proceeded to tell me about her daughter and the awful relationships she had been in, in the past as well as, the loveless marriage she had been living in but that she and her husband had been separated just over three and a half months at that point. After that night we messaged each other many times on instant messaging programs, Facebook, video calls, and emails. It wasn’t long before Jodie made it a point to tell me multiple times per conversation, how much she loves me, how much she needed me, how bad she wants to be with me, and how bad she needed me to move to Ontario to be with her, that I am the only one that can make her happy as well as numerous other things. I was very happy in my life and told her just that! I was a good person and becoming better every day, I was living a life I absolutely loved and it was getting better daily. I told her was more than firm on my decision not to move to Ontario and without even making a comment that was anywhere close to suggestive or indicative that I would request or even desire such a thing went a tirade explaining why she couldn’t come to Alberta to be with me. A couple of the unwarranted reasons she gave was that her “estranged” husband would take her to court because of taking the child involved so far away, she absolutely will not leave the job at which her wage was “$26.50”, That she was her terminally ill mothers personal care giver and that her mother had to remain in London for
the multiple appointments she was to attend each week that her daughter could not leave the London area school district, as well as many other unwarranted explanations for denying a request that was never considered making on my behalf let alone being made! Over the course of the weeks following the reintroduction into each others lives we (as previously mentioned) spoke a lot using many different avenues. Admittedly there were times in which we became “intimate” during our video calls. During all of the interaction we partook in, I began to spend more time “with” her than I did in any area of my life, Jodie began to make (as I define it) that we were involved in a relationship with each other all the while I repeatedly expressed my opposition to this as a result of my morals and ethics when it came to her being married, each time having been
fed the rationalization/justification that they had been separated almost three and a half months at that point. I ended up missing twelve straight days at work in order to “spend as much time” as I could with her resulting in me losing my job as well as my residence, don’t get me wrong please I am not blaming her for the choices I made in that respect! Upon informing her of my loss of employment an air of happiness was in the aura of the conversation and almost immediately she told me to move to Ontario to be with her stating she makes lots of money and would take care of me. I told her that was unacceptable to me and again that I was firm about staying in Alberta, but if I did go to Ontario I have a pension I could rely on until I found work, reiterating I DO NOT want to go to Ontario, eventually it was almost to the point it could be defined as "begging" me to go to Ontario. I stated if I did I could only afford to give her $325-$450 for rent until I started working. She in turn, in a tone of dismay told me “I don’t want your money, not for rent, not for anything, I just want to take care of you”. Insulted, I made it a point to let her know my feelings on a woman taking care of a man financially as well as the fact I will not have anyone take care of me in any way, I told her about all of the people that have
said things very similar but in time spited the other party involved by using that as an insult if it were in fact agreed on and taken place, I was assured to no end this would not be the case she “is not like that” and “would never do that”. She apologized and told me, whether I like it or not the offer is always there. I graciously thanked her for the offer and politely declined. A few days after losing my housing I went to a coffee shop in order to access the internet and assure everyone including Jodie that everything was ok and that I will be absent for a while as I make alterations to my life. Jodie and I spoke and she offered to transfer me money to get cigarettes, coffee, and any essentials I need, for two days I declined and eventually on the third day she
sent me a small amount of money. Over the next few weeks she did that again assuring me I owed her nothing and not to be embarrassed because she wanted to do it as a result of feeling bad for being “part of the reason all of this has happened”. Over the course of the next few days the relationship “thing” was brought up again, jokingly (irritated and wanting to shut her up) I stated “you are my complicated married Ontario girlfriend.” I put it on my Facebook profile and she and I joked about it however, oddly she would not confirm it with Facebook in order that it would show on my profile. This struck me as odd so, I questioned her about it; her reply to it was a friend request form a profile “she made for me and me only”. I dismissed it and
confirmed the friend request to see that she also had one other person on the profile named Rikk! Upon confirming the friend request a confirmation request came through that would allow both my profile as well as, the profile she made for “me and me only” to state that she and I were in a relationship. I asked her why if it was for me and me only why this other fellow was on it, and who he is. Her reply was simple, “he has been my best friend for years,” “Sorry I didn’t think it would bother you, I haven’t even talked to him in weeks!” Odd to
me that if she created that account that day how he was on that profile if they in fact had not talked in weeks! Immediately he was longer on that profile, (I want to be clear that I did not request or suggest in any way that had to happen).
*THE PART I JUMP AHEAD BUT WILL COME BACK TO IS HERE!*
I was hanging around with my two friends Ben and Clayton a lot at the point I finally gave in to the nagging to go to Ontario and attempt the life Jodie “described” just before getting on the bus for a FOUR DAY trip she confessed to me that her husband that she separated with still lives with her for reasons that have changed many times, after the four day bus ride she picked me up at the depot stopping for coffee for her mother, myself, and the guy she was separated from and absolutely hated and doesn’t even speak a word to unless it
is about their kid. We arrived at their house, as soon as I was on the porch I peeked in the door to see him lying on the couch, I extinguished my cigarette and went inside to meet him (she was excited to introduce us despite the conditions on the things I am not to reveal) He said hello and was happy to finally meet “one of Jodie’s oldest friends” (keep in mind she and I spent six hours together walking her home exchanged two phonecalls from jail and never saw each other again!) Jodie and I sat on the front porch talking late into the night, her daughter was sent out over and over again telling her “daddy wants you to come to bed” “mommy daddy wants you to come in please” Her husband repeatedly appeared in the window behind us, when this
caught Jodie’s attention he made gestures of “confusion” asking “what are you doing?” I told her it all struck me as odd she in turn explained it away as “he is always like that, even though were separated he still tries controlling me” more than once he opened the door and in a voice of concern asked “what are you doing? It’s after midnight come in, you need your sleep” nervously she assured him she would be in soon. Eventually I said you better get to bed in a more than irritated tone, straight away she made it a point to say “I don’t even
sleep in the same bed as him” I shrugged prompting her to ask in a sarcastic/accusatory tone “What? It’s true, we aren’t together” (I didn’t ask) We went inside and she pointed to the stairs leading (Ironically) to the
basement and said that would be where I will sleep, she will be able to sleep down there with me Sunday to Thursday while he was on the midnight shift. HUH!!!!!!! Like I said above I will add to this until it is brought up to today as well as the gaps filled in.
date it was updated, I hope you are able to enjoy the read just as much as I have tried living this consortium of….ummmm stuff
**A lot of content (of great importance) has been mysteriously deleted.**
A quick overview of what has gone missing goes a little like this... Jody got me back to Ontario, I was on the
front porch having a smoke as soon as I got there, I took a peek in the door and saw a guy laying on the couch, I asked who it was and casually she informed me it was her husband he still lived there!!! Shocked, I was infuriated but shrugged it off, we spent the entire evening on the porch talking about whatever the hell she was going on about, he kept coming out saying you gotta work in the morning come in and go to bed. This struck me as odd if they weren't together why did he need to keep coming out over and over and try to get her into bed. She informed me I would be sleeping in the basement. I didn't give a fuck I was disgusted! Days went by and the conversation about him still living there kept coming up and I made note of my discomfort, she tried repeatedly to comfort me by telling me that there was nothing to worry about he slept with their daughter
and blah blah blah. That in itself is wrong, NO? I am going to make this brief from here on for this evening/morning. She and I were having sex one night in the basement, with full view of the staircase leading to kitchen, I noticed that she was looking up to the kitchen constantly so I decided to glance up and see
what the hell she was looking at. Lo and behold her husband Jason was standing where he thought perhaps I wouldn't notice, watching us while he was masturbating!!! The following day after my rage had subsided to a degree, I confronted her, her explanation was almost as simple as she is, I was only looking up there to see if he would catch us or not, "I was really hoping he would Jason, you have to believe me I just wanted to piss him off and make him jealous!" I told her that I would only live this Jerry Springer type life for a little while longer out of necessity and that she need fix it, of course the promise like many others was made! Anyway it was hell for a while and things got better things got bad again and so on, anyway read up on this page and the update page that coincidentally has this whole time frame up until now deleted, but soon recovered, but hopefully you will get a look at the book as soon as it is released in the not to far future! * I am going to omit a bunch of things and jump ahead but fill in the omitted portions either late tonight (November 6, 2011) or tomorrow the reason for this is… this is already a long read and I have a few things to do that just popped out of the wood work and I don’t want this to be such a long read the first day it is up that things are missed for whatever reason (rushing, not enough time to read it all overwhelmed etc.) The part I am going to jump to will be indicative to a SMALL degree where things went, have been going, and where they are now.*
In mid-June of this year (2011) I emerged from rehabilitation for alcohol abuse, I attended treatment on my own accord without prompting of any sort from anyone, I just finally realized it was time to further improve the good person I was striving to become, that included abstaining from alcohol abuse as well as the behavior that surfaced as a result of my inebriation, please don’t take that as me scapegoating for my behavior, I am well aware that I am responsible for my own actions and behavior’s. The day that followed my discharge from rehabilitation was filled with curiosity in regards to what has been taking place in “The World I Know” so, I went to the computer and logged into one of my Facebook accounts to see what the people I know that utilize that
forum have been up to as well as tend to a few other things whilst at the computer. Like many times upon logging into my account I had numerous messages in my inbox, a multitude of notifications, as well as a friend request. The friend request annoyed me, it annoyed me because, as many people do I often receive requests to add people I either don’t know, don’t desire to know, people portraying someone they are not, as well as people I have removed from my life in the past. After tending to my inbox, notifications as well as sending and
replying to a number of emails I decided it was about time to go through the possible frustration brought about by whoever sent the friend request. Upon opening the link to see who or what the friend request was I see a face I saw fifteen years previous on a night my friend Jeff and I set out to meet a girl Jeff had arranged to meet over a telephone dating site. She and Jeff found there was little or no chemistry during the time the three of us spent together that evening, at the end of the evening she stated it was time for her to get home. It was late and the walk home for her was going to be quite long, I told Jeff we had to walk her home she was at that time our responsibility, during the conversations she had with Jeff previous to that evening she had lied about her
age stating that she, like myself was nineteen upon meeting and seeing her face it was more than evident that was a lie! The lie was dismissed and it was revealed at some point during the evening she was in fact seventeen. Jumping ahead now, much to both of our dismay, Jeff and I started out on the walk home with her. At some point in our travels Jeff went about his own way to make his way home, I remained with her keeping my commitment to get her home safely. After over six hours of walking, we had arrived at her residence, in brief conversation before she headed inside and I began my travels back home we discussed hanging out again and off she went. In the days that followed she and I had no contact, and I found myself involved in something that sealed my fate for four months, I was arrested and sentenced to four months in jail. During my time in jail she and I spoke on the telephone a couple of times as well as, exchanged a few letters making arrangements to hang out after I was released from jail however, in the course of exchanging letters I was also writing another young lady and in an “accidental” faux pas on the correctional centers guards behalf the letters after being read for mandatory safety precautions by the guards, the guard proof reading my letters “accidently” put the letters for the two different people in the wrong envelopes thus, leading to each of the two
receiving mail addressed to them but upon opening the letters finding the contents were meant for someone else. This “faux pas” led to the demise of the two of us exchanging letters as well as, ceasing communication at every level. I was released from jail in September of 1996 and went about my life for 15 years without her included in it at any level or in any form. Right then! Back to the friend request, attached to the friend request was a simple“to the point message” she asked, “remember me?” I in turn powered the computer off and thought about how I would approach the entire “fiasco”. After much thought and consideration I decided a few days later to address the issue and deal with it. I confirmed her friend request and told her“Jodie of course I remember you, your last name is different so obviously you got married but your face is very much the same”. Jodie Proceeded to tell me about all of the horrors in her life and how bad it has been for her, and went on exhaustingly about how bad she misses me and thinks of memore than daily, further, that I was her first love, she has never and never will stop loving and thinking about me. She proceeded to tell me about her daughter and the awful relationships she had been in, in the past as well as, the loveless marriage she had been living in but that she and her husband had been separated just over three and a half months at that point. After that night we messaged each other many times on instant messaging programs, Facebook, video calls, and emails. It wasn’t long before Jodie made it a point to tell me multiple times per conversation, how much she loves me, how much she needed me, how bad she wants to be with me, and how bad she needed me to move to Ontario to be with her, that I am the only one that can make her happy as well as numerous other things. I was very happy in my life and told her just that! I was a good person and becoming better every day, I was living a life I absolutely loved and it was getting better daily. I told her was more than firm on my decision not to move to Ontario and without even making a comment that was anywhere close to suggestive or indicative that I would request or even desire such a thing went a tirade explaining why she couldn’t come to Alberta to be with me. A couple of the unwarranted reasons she gave was that her “estranged” husband would take her to court because of taking the child involved so far away, she absolutely will not leave the job at which her wage was “$26.50”, That she was her terminally ill mothers personal care giver and that her mother had to remain in London for
the multiple appointments she was to attend each week that her daughter could not leave the London area school district, as well as many other unwarranted explanations for denying a request that was never considered making on my behalf let alone being made! Over the course of the weeks following the reintroduction into each others lives we (as previously mentioned) spoke a lot using many different avenues. Admittedly there were times in which we became “intimate” during our video calls. During all of the interaction we partook in, I began to spend more time “with” her than I did in any area of my life, Jodie began to make (as I define it) that we were involved in a relationship with each other all the while I repeatedly expressed my opposition to this as a result of my morals and ethics when it came to her being married, each time having been
fed the rationalization/justification that they had been separated almost three and a half months at that point. I ended up missing twelve straight days at work in order to “spend as much time” as I could with her resulting in me losing my job as well as my residence, don’t get me wrong please I am not blaming her for the choices I made in that respect! Upon informing her of my loss of employment an air of happiness was in the aura of the conversation and almost immediately she told me to move to Ontario to be with her stating she makes lots of money and would take care of me. I told her that was unacceptable to me and again that I was firm about staying in Alberta, but if I did go to Ontario I have a pension I could rely on until I found work, reiterating I DO NOT want to go to Ontario, eventually it was almost to the point it could be defined as "begging" me to go to Ontario. I stated if I did I could only afford to give her $325-$450 for rent until I started working. She in turn, in a tone of dismay told me “I don’t want your money, not for rent, not for anything, I just want to take care of you”. Insulted, I made it a point to let her know my feelings on a woman taking care of a man financially as well as the fact I will not have anyone take care of me in any way, I told her about all of the people that have
said things very similar but in time spited the other party involved by using that as an insult if it were in fact agreed on and taken place, I was assured to no end this would not be the case she “is not like that” and “would never do that”. She apologized and told me, whether I like it or not the offer is always there. I graciously thanked her for the offer and politely declined. A few days after losing my housing I went to a coffee shop in order to access the internet and assure everyone including Jodie that everything was ok and that I will be absent for a while as I make alterations to my life. Jodie and I spoke and she offered to transfer me money to get cigarettes, coffee, and any essentials I need, for two days I declined and eventually on the third day she
sent me a small amount of money. Over the next few weeks she did that again assuring me I owed her nothing and not to be embarrassed because she wanted to do it as a result of feeling bad for being “part of the reason all of this has happened”. Over the course of the next few days the relationship “thing” was brought up again, jokingly (irritated and wanting to shut her up) I stated “you are my complicated married Ontario girlfriend.” I put it on my Facebook profile and she and I joked about it however, oddly she would not confirm it with Facebook in order that it would show on my profile. This struck me as odd so, I questioned her about it; her reply to it was a friend request form a profile “she made for me and me only”. I dismissed it and
confirmed the friend request to see that she also had one other person on the profile named Rikk! Upon confirming the friend request a confirmation request came through that would allow both my profile as well as, the profile she made for “me and me only” to state that she and I were in a relationship. I asked her why if it was for me and me only why this other fellow was on it, and who he is. Her reply was simple, “he has been my best friend for years,” “Sorry I didn’t think it would bother you, I haven’t even talked to him in weeks!” Odd to
me that if she created that account that day how he was on that profile if they in fact had not talked in weeks! Immediately he was longer on that profile, (I want to be clear that I did not request or suggest in any way that had to happen).
*THE PART I JUMP AHEAD BUT WILL COME BACK TO IS HERE!*
I was hanging around with my two friends Ben and Clayton a lot at the point I finally gave in to the nagging to go to Ontario and attempt the life Jodie “described” just before getting on the bus for a FOUR DAY trip she confessed to me that her husband that she separated with still lives with her for reasons that have changed many times, after the four day bus ride she picked me up at the depot stopping for coffee for her mother, myself, and the guy she was separated from and absolutely hated and doesn’t even speak a word to unless it
is about their kid. We arrived at their house, as soon as I was on the porch I peeked in the door to see him lying on the couch, I extinguished my cigarette and went inside to meet him (she was excited to introduce us despite the conditions on the things I am not to reveal) He said hello and was happy to finally meet “one of Jodie’s oldest friends” (keep in mind she and I spent six hours together walking her home exchanged two phonecalls from jail and never saw each other again!) Jodie and I sat on the front porch talking late into the night, her daughter was sent out over and over again telling her “daddy wants you to come to bed” “mommy daddy wants you to come in please” Her husband repeatedly appeared in the window behind us, when this
caught Jodie’s attention he made gestures of “confusion” asking “what are you doing?” I told her it all struck me as odd she in turn explained it away as “he is always like that, even though were separated he still tries controlling me” more than once he opened the door and in a voice of concern asked “what are you doing? It’s after midnight come in, you need your sleep” nervously she assured him she would be in soon. Eventually I said you better get to bed in a more than irritated tone, straight away she made it a point to say “I don’t even
sleep in the same bed as him” I shrugged prompting her to ask in a sarcastic/accusatory tone “What? It’s true, we aren’t together” (I didn’t ask) We went inside and she pointed to the stairs leading (Ironically) to the
basement and said that would be where I will sleep, she will be able to sleep down there with me Sunday to Thursday while he was on the midnight shift. HUH!!!!!!! Like I said above I will add to this until it is brought up to today as well as the gaps filled in.